I was asked why I am writing this blog, what my aim was and for what purpose but I had no answer to give. In this, my first blog post, I want to try and explain why, but Honestly I have no idea why I am writing this blog except that I have a few things in my mind I wish to express and let out. I have tried to express them in other ways but this is the only one that I think would actually work. I don’t see it as hiding behind an alias, since almost anything I am going to share is not only experienced by me but many others as well and I don’t like to single myself out. I guess that would kind of make me selfish in a way but I really don’t care. My only aim is to let it all out and if only one person reads it would be fine with me.
I think the video explains the state of mind I find myself in most of the time, I want to break free of this hole I feel inside and maybe try to find out what exactly is my purpose in life. Sharing and communication is an essential part of our Humanity and I want to reach the right people that share my mindset and interests. I think this is the only way for me to do so.
Something always keeps me from sharing my thoughts with others but this time I will keep it online for as long as I can so that maybe it will reach a few out there before I completely lose all hope in Humanity. The life I live now is a result of a long history of mistakes, pain, and anguish that will stay with me for the rest of my life. I despise this type of living and I am not a fan of self loathing and self pity. I was hoping that my first blog post doesn’t come out as depressing as it looks. I am most defiantly not looking for anyone to feel pity for me in any way, I just want people to read what I have to say and maybe share their thoughts on it. Not everything you will read on here is as depressing as this post, and almost all of the things that I will be sharing are not even directly related to me or who I am. I hope you find the time to go through some of the posts and take an idea of the kind of message I want to send out and my thoughts about some of the things we experience on a daily basis. If you do like or are interested in some of them, share your comments on it.